~A Shiny Star~

Name : Elena Lim
Nick: Moo, AuRo'Na

Adores:
Beautiful scenery

~Quotes~
  • A Blithe Heart Makes A Blooming Visage...
  • We give up leisure in order that wemay have leisure...
  • If you're great at something, tell everyone. If you're GREAT at something, they'll tell u...
  • L.U.C.K~ Laboring Under Correct Knowledge
  • There is no intrinsic truth hidden in the experiences and encounters of life...

~May our wishes come true~

Stupidity

Monday, December 21, 2009


I guess... the worst kinda illness is stupidity...
It just can't be cured...


~AuRo`Na~
Monday, December 21, 2009

The End

Monday, September 21, 2009


I guess this marks the end...

It takes a lot of courage to love, and it takes a lot of courage to leave.
Sometimes you have to fight for your rights To get what you should have as an individual.

What if he can't give you what u rightfully deserves?

Don't you wish, crying and wailing gets you your way?

Some times, your heart wants to just reach out. But it seems like pride takes the way. I'm just very often, not the women that men would give in to. I'm just not the woman men will love and protect with all their heart and soul.

What's wrong? Do i seem too strong to need any protection? Do i seem too independent to need anyone?

Crap... What am i talking about? I should just shut up...




~AuRo`Na~
Monday, September 21, 2009

Pacifying me...

Tuesday, August 18, 2009


how to pacify a warrior princess:
Listen and give her a voice for her problems.
Let her vent when needed.
Support and back her up when she needs it. Let her cry and vent, and offer the shoulder.
Let her ogle at my cute butt.
Pick her up from the airport.

(Pass... offer the sturdy and strong shoulders --> Distinction!)


~AuRo`Na~
Tuesday, August 18, 2009

Hm...

Saturday, April 04, 2009


What will i be in 2 years time? 5 years time?

Ans: I will be the mother of 2 kid... I will have a Mr of Elena Lim
Ans: My sch would be proud of me...




~AuRo`Na~
Saturday, April 04, 2009

Hectic life of changes

Thursday, March 12, 2009


Well... Another post about me and my job.
Last year 23rd June i started working... So, till now it's less than 9 months to be exact!

Ok, let me start... Beginning of work.. i had a whole series of DRAMA... Ask me about it when u meet me... (Too long story)
End July then, was my very first presentation.
Then i was supposed to work with my very 'objective' boss, whom i had lots of trouble getting his time, and attention as he was the No. 2 man in my company. He will asked me very simple yet emotionless questions... Sessions spend with him was tough because he didn't even ask how i'm doing, u know, those typical question a boss should be asking his new comer.
Then came learning about an equipment, which i had to work with another 2 guys who were experts in it.
That went on for like the next 2 months after my very first presentation.
Come sept, i was tasked to learn more about IT in Indonesia. So i had a co-boss to handle also. And people are all different.. So it was adaptation. Plus the country was few hours of flight away and people are only communicable vis Email/Phone/SMS. So... I had to adapt. The whole thing for indonesia ended around Jan'09 with a final presentation.
Since then i had to work on Cambodia! And with a new Boss!!! He's very very good, but initially had a super hard time to communicate with him. But now things are starting to warm up. And today... I'm informed.. I have to change again...

Change to some equipment that i like less. And a market that i never thought i wanted to do. So... in less than 9 month... I had to make major adaptations over and over and over again....

I'm more tired by the 'hective changes in my life" than anything else. On top of that... int he month of Dec'08 to Feb'09, there were so many changes in my personal life at hm... Gosh...

I hope these are all for the better...
I don't think anyone has had this kinda change like i do... Nevertheless.. I better prove myself to be good.. Else i can go bang wall!!!


~AuRo`Na~
Thursday, March 12, 2009

Corporate Life

Tuesday, March 10, 2009


i started work on 23rd June 2009. It has been close to 9 months...
Corporate life... I would say... is not the best part of living. You realise that everything done at work is for a purpose. Well, we may say, we live for a greater purpose.
My job function is sales. But i haven't really gotten any sales done. Once a while, i will be in contact with my customers. They are not in my home country and communication is tough; with the phone line breaking with few words spoken. With reply broken... It's really tough to get the market moving.

Now wonder, what can i do to speed things up in the country when i'm so far away. Mr Boss always ask me for numbers. But what numbers can i give to him? I feel totally crippled, in language, in knowledge, in even contact and communication. All i can think of is marketing stuffs for my country...

Everytime i think of writing for blog.. I end up not writing anything that make sense... Is it my writing skills? Or maybe i'm not emotional enough to even pen things down.. I suck at this... Damn it!


~AuRo`Na~
Tuesday, March 10, 2009

updates

Sunday, February 22, 2009


Hello Sada Vi Le Lo...

MY new job is a job that everyone dreams to have... Or at least the people around me.

Life is so different for the past 3 months especially, since my dad got ill. He's suffering from Wegener's Granulatomosis. And when i say Suffering, he really is SUFFERING from it... The effect of the medication and the illness itself is shocking. The ageing in his skin, the lack of strength and energy in his action and movements. And a father whom i never expects i would see...

Since i was 9 years old, i gotten used to coming hm to a pretty much empty house... With radio, TV as my company... Afterwhich, i stayed in NTU hostel for like 3 years, for which the times when i came home... It was more of like a break for me... My family grew apart, in some ways when my grandmother passed away few years back...

With the illness that my father is having, it seems overwhelming sometimes to have so many people at my place, hanging around, visiting and cooking etc etc...

Somehow or another, i thinki've slowly gotten used to it...
My work is great despite the hiccups that i encounter once a while. I still think i should be thankful to him who gave me a chance.

He gave me more than just a job. He taught me a lot, directly or indirectly allowing me to learn, love and experience things which i don't know if i could without his presence.

I made a big investment on a DSLR recently and am having fun with it...

Recently, i spend a lot of time crying... whailing out to people... like Shun, Fei, Stephanie and others... People grew apart often due to relationships, work etc... I guess i'm one of them. But i regret for all the special bonds that were present previously and seems to be missing now...

People all grow up, and people always live for themselves. I live for myself many times, but for some situation, i'm pushed around too much. Often when told to friends who cared about me... I get whacked:"why can't u just protect urself." " I'm worried for you, if u always get pushed around like that!" are just some of the common phrases people say to me...

I am a very big emotional sponge, and i think what Mr. M.D says about me is right... That i've done better than what others could if in my current situation. If he had know the entire situation, i guess... I'd be his idol...

Indeed, i feel that in many cases, i've done better than what others had. It was tough, each and everytime things happened and pass by, i cry and wail and yell and hit people... But i always will hold through all troubles and worries... Well, that's me. If you know me well enough, i tear so much each and everyday, but i do understand that whatever don't kill me, does make ms so so so so much stronger.

Anyway, I've said this so many times and i will keep saying this... Until, i can live like days, months and years of my life feeling satisfied internally. When i say this... I'm just looking for times when the net emotion each day is +ve. And i can smile to sleep everyday... Wake up looking forward to happy times ahead...

Smile my dear friends!


~AuRo`Na~
Sunday, February 22, 2009

my birthday

Tuesday, February 17, 2009


He say he will spend that day with me... Will he?
Really?


~AuRo`Na~
Tuesday, February 17, 2009

men are men...

Thursday, December 04, 2008


When a man don't love u... forget about all the promises he has made...
Men are afterall men...

What difference are they from ***?


~AuRo`Na~
Thursday, December 04, 2008

It has been quite some time...

Wednesday, October 29, 2008


Since 8th May... My life changed so much...
To someone i feel so unsure of...
Is this the real me? Is this what is not me?

I am so difficult to understand these days...
I have the bestest job i can ever thought of having, cool, funky colleagues... Colleagues more sporting than others...

Today, i had interaction with my boss, he's still sweet to me...
S. came online today, just to say hi to me... And apologised saying, she's sorry that she hasn't been spending enough time for me... Asked me for a dinner with vendor...
KT asked me out for coffee... Only today, it's not convenient for me to have coffee... I made him mocha (gao gao ) instead...
KH called me a sweetie and asked me to go for drinking session tonight...
Steph is a good buddy... nice to bitch with... and she still owe me a dinner... haha...

I had lunch with mt. costing 65 just for 2 main course...

An ex-student's mum dropped me msg, saying she's glad to hear from me for Diwali, and said, they miss me a lot, hope to hear from me. So i offered to help Shar with tuition once again...
C is so nice, he is bringing me for Halloween this friday... he had been very nice to me, since we started contacting like 2 months back. I wonder if he's pitying me as well... Feeling that i feel somewhat maybe empty inside?!

K. bought me a CD.
Quek listened to me telling her about 1 sad month in my life... following the crying... then stop crying...
Denise listens to my complain all the time... hang out with me whenever we can...
Fei-jie, though sometimes i get rude to her... She's been very forgiving... thinking that.. I'm just her xiao-meimei and forgives me for all that i say.. and all that i do...
Shunz... listen to my.. "aye.. i damn sianz..."

I had my company DnD, and i won the best dress... People see me and regard me as high potential in office... Some welcome me, some are so happy to see me.

Some Nepalese guy seems to like me, msged smth like 'miss u'... I dare not even reply...

I'm waiting for YF to send me a postcard... I wonder if he forgot about it, or is it going to take too long... Coming from China or Sweden... Hm...

I'm going back to learning my bike... Next lesson is scheduled on 2nd Nov afternoon...

Brother's wedding is soon... next friday... I'll be on leave... The biggest thing at Limster for don't know how many years...

Last week, got the 1st taste of how it feels when pple ask me to get married... Might be just a casual remark. But i just know it will never be soon...

In September, there was this period of time... Every morning i woke up with a sigh... Thinking why is there a need to live.
We're just a shell, and i've lost my soul...
I can't understand how people find so much meaning in living.
Don't they know that no one's indispensible in this world.
The world will go on... regardless of who's absence or presence...
Yes... Some people make a difference, make a change... Yet there are also many thing that doesn't actually even need a change... So, why change...

Why your presence that make such changes... That is actually no change... Things remain in status quo, though the rationale behind it is different... Yet, what's the use of such rationale when nothing can be done...

Everyday, we are just waiting for some meaning to come. But when it comes... u realise that, it's not for u to own that meaning... To own that life, what would u do?

These few months has been very emotional for me... Having been in relationships for over the past 8-9 years, and suddenly being single once again... I start keeping things in myself again, because i'm so used to sharing everything with my significant other.

My trusted one... where is he? when is he coming to me? is he even there for me?

I'm not desperate for a partner. Just that when i looked back, life seems so much easier, simpler all because of the presence of someone. Doesn't even necessarily be a special one, doesn't even need to be someone u love deeply. But it was so much easier. No matter how much it seems like u don't want to marry that person. It's as though everyday, u r working to plan for something in the future, better ahead... Need not be a family, need not be a home... But there's just someone to lean on when u feel really down...

Now. Me. I'm expected to understand. Expected to tolerate. Expected to be nice. Expected to know how. Expected to do everything. Just because i look like i'm strong, super career minded... doesn't mean i'm made of metal. I have emotions too...

Enqi said... "U look like u don't need a man..." Should i feel good about that?
A. said... " You've changed so much. When i first met you, you look like someone who will not fall in love. I thought, wow, this girl is so professional!"
A. said... " Beauty, Brain, Bitch"

The world is so messy these days... There's an article " Lust @ lunch" in the women's weekly magazine... Read it if u can... Think about the faith when it comes to marriage....

My ideal, marry a man say.... ard... 42... he has everything, no need to think about car, house, career etc... No hassle, of going thru things like, how much for apartment down payment. 20 yrs later, he's 62, i'm 43. Still alright.. Chilren ard 17 yr old... When he's 70, can start taking care of him... And by then my child around 25... I'm ard 50... And then... when he dies... i'll focus on career... holiday.. else grandchildren... With his insurance money and saving, i'll have a good life... If good, i might still be able to get good companion... What a life...

I'm very bad at expressing myself, even not go for a wake... because i do not know what to say... I never really know how to make pple feel that i love them except for trying to do the right things... alamak.. i'm not even making sense here...

I have a very weird feeling anyway, seems like something might be happening soon... Don't ask me wat... but like there's something coming up... We shall see...

My life... no excitement for the next few years... It will all be about work... and people whom i go out with, drink with, eat with, work with... what else... No marriage... no love... no children... not at the moment for me...

I'll be 24 next year... 2 dozens, 3 eights, 4 sixes, 5 four-point-eight, and 6 fours... What will i do on my birthday... I think it's a wednesday... Not a very exciting for anything to happen...

I'm just a simple girl, simple person. What to expect... No special person to give me flower... not on valentine's... not on my birthday...

What about Christmas this year? No more earrings in Chocolates... No more romantic dinners... No more JB shopping... No more so many things...

I don't need a boyfriend. I need a specific aim/ meaning/goal... Like, i want to be XXX in XX company by Xyrs that kinda thing.. But i know.. nothing can satisfy me... nothing will make me feel really OMPH! to work hard...

At the end of each day... We just want to be happy...
That's why we seek ways and means to try to get what we want...
Some of us get happy by gaining power, so we climb up the ladder...
Some of us get happy by having more money, so we increase our sales...
Some of us get happy by having sex, so we go around screwing people...
some of us get happy by looking pretty, we end up going for so many enhancements and surgery...

Perhaps, those are our insecurities...
The lousier u are, the more you want to be on the top...
The richer u are, the more you think u are not as rich as XXX...
The less potent you are, the more you want to prove your worthiness...
The prettier you are, the more you are afraid to look ugly...

My my.... i can really talk crap...
Till then....






~AuRo`Na~
Wednesday, October 29, 2008

For the love of my life...


You Are The Love Of My Life - George Benson

You Are The Love Of My Life
I knew it right from the start
The moment I looked at you
You found a place in my heart

You Are The Love Of My Life
You give me reason to live
You taught me how to be strong
With you is where I belong

No one's ever touched me
Quite the way you touched me
People search a life time
To find what we have

You Are The Love Of My Life
One thing that's good in this life
I'll spend the rest of my days
Just loving you

You Are The Love Of My Life
The heart and sould of my life
Once I was lost and alone
With you at last I am home

You Are The Love Of My Life
You give me reason to live
You give me so much of you
And leave me room to be free

No one's ever touched me
Quite the way you touched me
People search a life time
To find what we have

You Are The Love Of My Life
One thing that's good in this life
And in a world full of change
One thing I'm sure of

You Are The Love Of My Life
The one thing that makes sense in this world
I'll spend the rest of my days
Just loving you...

You Are The Love Of My Life
And I thank GOD I'm alive
To spend my lifetime with you
You Are The Love Of My Life.


~AuRo`Na~
Wednesday, October 29, 2008

Love poem.. for my far away lover...

Monday, October 20, 2008


We smiled when we part...
Now we live miles apart...
I'll fill you in my dreams...
Unto you.. i give my heart....


~AuRo`Na~
Monday, October 20, 2008

Company DnD

Saturday, October 18, 2008


Mambo Jumbo! Retro! was the theme for my company DnD...
I'm only in the company for about 3.5 months...
And the very first DnD i attended...

It was great fun... until i felt so tired of all the picture taking... hm... But it's ok...

I think i have become pretty quiet recently.... Not much ramblings n etc...
Or maybe i talk to much that i can't bring myself to put them down in words anymore...

So.. i'll just put some pictures here... and that's it.. close this entry... Anyway, i don't even know if there's anyone still reading the blog.. haha.. just for fun then.....

From 10. GE-DnD
Do i look Retro enough?
From 10. GE-DnD
This is me n my HR manager....

From 10. GE-DnD
Boss... Me... My DnD Chairperson....

From 10. GE-DnD
The group of girls...

From 10. GE-DnD
Me and my favorite lawyer...

From 10. GE-DnD
Me and Guy... My newest Neighbor...

From 10. GE-DnD
My big boss ex-PA, my punky fren... n me...

From 10. GE-DnD
My table...


~AuRo`Na~
Saturday, October 18, 2008

lover...




What Kind of Date Are You?

You are a Romantic. You know how to please your partner and make them feel special. You get to know them and find what they like. You truly care about them and how they feel.

Find Your Character @ BrainFall.com


~AuRo`Na~
Saturday, October 18, 2008

Sexy...




How Sexy Are You?

You are Foxy. Wherever you go, people can't keep their eyes off of you. You are cool, classy and seductive. You love the attention you get and flirt with everyone. You are never alone- and never will be. You are popular and your phone is always ringing. Your life is absolutely perfect and you would not change one thing about it! You love being a sexy fox!

Find Your Character @ BrainFall.com


~AuRo`Na~
Saturday, October 18, 2008

My Ba Zi

Sunday, September 28, 2008


Personality and Character

You are very good in judging others and hardly make an error. You plan strategies and sense the weaknesses of your adversaries. Your sense of compassion and understanding easily draw people to you. You are determined, ambitious, knowledgeable and innovative which will likely make you financially successful. Your reserved ways and quiet mannerisms emphasize your strength and worthiness to others. As a sensitive person your ego can be bruised easily as you do not tolerate any disrespect.

You are a gifted person who can accomplish a great deal if properly motivated. You are also good at know-how to manage, handle and use others through your diplomatic talent. You are fast in reacting to situations, catching opportunities and can see what people want from you.

Romance and Compatibilities

You have a high libido and often have a busy sex life and secret affairs. You need a family, so marriage is important. The extramarital affairs will create conflicts and cause much problem to you. You always crave and look for a complementary broad-minded person to share your life with. Taurus, Cancer, Scorpio and Capricorn born in Snake/Rat/Rooster years are your favorite.

You are open and explicitly sexual with men. You like to teach and train your men as lovers and so you often choose younger men as your lovers.

Profession

You are steady, courageous, creative and innovative. You desire to live in luxury and with your strength, dedication and patience you can become rich if you choose to be. Integrity and respect is important to you as a boss. As an employee, you are reliable but a bit too slow. Suitable careers include company director, administrator, stockbroker, office manager or lawyer.

You will achieve much success in the financial field like mortgages, financial futures, stock broking and money market. You are capable in planning, building, developing and operating a business enterprise. In short, you hope to become a capitalist and you often associate with people in high places.



~AuRo`Na~
Sunday, September 28, 2008

Adopt a child...


What's wrong with adoption?
What's wrong with giving meaning and life to myself and someone else...
Isn't it better to be slogging n etc...
Instead of leading each day... Feeling like dying??


~AuRo`Na~
Sunday, September 28, 2008

that one...

Friday, August 29, 2008


I always used to believe that... there is just that someone... somewhere in the world for each and everyone...
A perfect fit... a perfect match...

But... it's a matter of.. when u will find him/her...
When u are old and failing in health? Or when u are still young and vibrant...

Where will u find him/her?
Just across the street? Or... in the next continent... Or... if fate doesn't allow... u never find that someone special...

Maybe you will find... maybe you won't in your lifetime...
But i still believe that he/she exists...
The perfect match...

Otherwise... would u settle for less?


~AuRo`Na~
Friday, August 29, 2008

Flowers everyday...

Saturday, July 26, 2008


When i get super rich.. super super rich...
The thing i will get is...
Fresh flowers to my house eeveryday!!

The smell of it.. WOW! Amazing... i can't describe!


~AuRo`Na~
Saturday, July 26, 2008

am i lost?

Sunday, June 29, 2008


thank u Mr Glenn Lee Junxiang...
He's bringing me out on a trip to KL...

Well.. he says: " u know what?! u r feeling lost.. I'd been thru the stage too. And... u just need time alone and u will know what u want!"

Heh...
Well, i have many things in life now.. and i have nothing in life now...
Yes i'm embarking on a journey, a new exciting journey... But then again, because it's just starting.. i actually have nothing NOW! Nothing at all...
Maybe soon i will have something.. maybe soon i will have everything...

But, i will be stronger, i will be much more stronger than what people want me to be. Afterall, i'm the very first, and one and only CDP trainee in my company...

I love my company, i love my position, i love my boss!! He gave me all the things that i had never expect i could ever have!!

Well, i also have to stop drinking so much. Recently got the habit of drinking.. not really say drinking but when u go out with people, u drink!!
Isaac just told me that for every like 1ml of beer, it's 7 calories... Heh.. thanks Bro...

So, i will have to try to cut down my food in take also. Eat less, since the drinking part is pretty hard to get rid of, so... cut the food consumption la...

What do i want? what do i expect.. i don't know... The BEST???


~AuRo`Na~
Sunday, June 29, 2008